I’m currently in my 3rd week in my 2nd semester of first year. It’s the most unreal thing to be back and yet it feels as natural as ever (if that makes any sense). This month my music taste kind of reverted to my high school self. For most of high school. I really liked rock and pop punk - Pierce the Veil and Evanescence. Similar to my 2018 self (so far away), I’ve listened to worship and but I’ve been loving Boston Manor and My Epic - just really cool bands at the moment. I’ve even gotten back into listening to Tonight Alive. Anyway, here's my life update!
No matter what time of year, we can always try improving and becoming the best versions of ourselves. It’s when we give way to our desires of the now that our ambition and productivity stops. We try to serve ourselves via instant gratification, forgetting the progress we’ve made leading up to this point. We have to remind ourselves of where we want to go, and how to get there.
There are all these timelines. These moments where we are expected to have fulfilled a goal. Graduated. Or employed. Or engaged. Or married. Or pregnant. Our definitions for our lives don’t matter when there are other voices crying out to us their opinions. Sometimes the world is even louder than our own souls. It’s hard to figure out who you are if you’re lost in a sea of everyone else’s voice but your own.
In the age of technology, we know the celebrities in a way we didn’t before. We can now see Kylie Jenner on her luxury vacation via her Snapchat or hear the political views of Trump via Twitter. No longer do we need the paparazzi to tell us what our favorite celebrities are doing. On Youtube, we can easily watch videos of what people living extraordinary lives look like, We see the boat trips and the Gucci bags and the trips from LA to Greece.
I absolutely love New Year's! There’s something about having a fresh start and knowing that everyone gets a do-over, some motivation to get started on those dreams we lose in the day to day life. Some people hate New Year's because they feel like they never get to their dreams. But to me, everyone acknowledges that we all need a clean slate after some pretty rough days.
We like to believe all of our dreams are really best for us, but honestly, the expectations we put on ourselves can be harmful. I thought coming into college I’d still be an amazing A student. That dream was just not for me.
This year I hopped onto one of the hottest trends. I got an iPhone and swiftly fell into the world of podcasts. I’m honestly terrible at finding new music for myself to listen to - I like what I like, why would I want to change? - and so, when I get tired of listening to my music, I really like to listen to someone else speak on a variety of things - Faith, love, life, etc.