my quarter life crisis is right on time!

I’ve been feeling kind of off for a few years, and then after a long TikTok scroll, I realized I’m having a quarter life crisis.

The concept of a quarter life crisis isn’t revolutionary, but the idea that ME, I’m having that quarter life crisis actually is so helpful. I’m at a point in my career where I’m not sure what I’m looking for, but I don’t think it’s spending so many hours looking at a screen. I’ve been spending lots of time in prayer asking God if it’s time to move, to leave New York City for greener pastures.

Part of what makes the quarter life crisis so acute in the 2020s is that we’re at a point where we feel like we’ve been told we can do anything. And then you look at the economy, the news, and you realize that that’s not true. But that pervasive belief of You can do anything makes you feel so much pressure to figure out the right thing to do.

I, who have never in my life had an aptitude for numbers, is looking at courses to learn accounting. Something in me is just seeking a change. Not just novelty, but a real lasting change. Do I go back to school (even though I already went back to school)? Do I move? Is it time to move? Do I want to try to become a paralegal and see if that interests me?

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With this job market being the worst it has been in a really long time, it feels so easy to dive into cynicism and feel the weight of all that’s out of control. 

If I move, where would I even go? Where would I want to go? It feels like the wrong time to make a big move when everything is so uncertain and unclear.

Plus winter is around the corner. Or it should be, though it doesn’t feel like it with 80 degree days in October.

If I focus on all that, I get really overwhelmed and the temptation for a TikTok scroll comes again. (Lately, I’ve been avoiding silence with God. Partly due to stress and partly due to not hearing what I want to hear.)

There are only two things I’m really sure of: time is passing whatever I decide and God loves me. (Learning that God loves me doesn’t shield me from the painful parts of life, but I’m never alone in them).

If you, like me, are having some sort of life crisis, then it’s time to take action. I am a deliberator. I can think myself anywhere without moving a muscle. But the truth is taking action is the best way to figure out where you want to go, and what actually is an open door.

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My present actions

Start minor job hunting – just a few applications a week and seeing the response

Making a list of companies I’d like to work for and networking

Learning to drive – if I want to move, it would be nice to have my license 🙂

Pray for open doors 

Learning something new – taking a course that can up my skills for job hunting

I’m afraid I’ve already had my dream job – working at the Study Center and getting to talk to other Christians about their walks of faith.

But I can still take steps to get to a new place, somewhere closer to where I want to be.

Signing off,

Gigi