feeling lost in your twenties

In your twenties, it’s not uncommon to feel lost. In the outside world, everyone’s in a different stage of life. Some of your friends are in school, some are working their first jobs. Some have moved states and others are living at home. 

I’m about to turn 24 next month, and lately, I’ve been feeling the pressure. The person I most related to in the Netflix Dallas Cowboy Cheerleaders series (it’s not drama — but about life and dreams) was Caroline. She had just finished her fifth year on the team and was dealing with the aftermath. She was allowing her body to heal but also had this sense of “What if the best years of my life are behind me?” And I relate so much. 

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It’s so hard to see what’s ahead for me that it can be worrisome. Will it really be better?

I do think there’s a specific pressure on your twenties. Pop culture makes it look so easy, that the things you want come easy to you, but it’s not the reality. You think your twenties are where you figure it all out, but that’s not always the path.

The people of the Bible did not usually start their careers until their 30s. Joseph was 30 when he became second in command to pharaoh in Egypt. Moses was 80 when God called him to lead his people out of Egypt. David was 30 when he became king. Jesus was 30 when he started his ministry.

But through their twenties, they were in waiting seasons. Joseph was enslaved and then thrown into prison. Moses spent 40 years being a shepherd to his father-in-law. David was also a shepherd and then on the run from Saul before he became king. Jesus was probably being a quiet carpenter in Nazareth before he ever felt called to begin his ministry.

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Figuring out what’s next isn’t as easy as I’d like it to be. But the thing that helps the most is feeling like I actually don’t need to figure it all out right now. There’s no timeline. Even though I feel like I’m behind, it’s good to look at the histories of others to remember that seasons take time. Ecclesiastes 3:1 says “There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens.”

So maybe there is time for feeling lost, without really knowing where this next season will lead me.

Signing off,

Gigi